Ambivalence
I’m not actually mad. I’m not even surprised. I’m not hurt. I’m not sad. It’s just my ambivalence sways me off like this. I’m in the middle point of everything. I contradict all my feelings with all what i think. I miss you. I don’t. I like you. I don’t. This is not something about moods. It’s just that, I already covered myself in such impacts that would probably hurt me. But I am ready to face anything. I am too fucked up for everything.
Most importantly, despite of being self-centered and ambivalent, I should took care of you, I should never gave up on you, I should have not let you go. And nothing contradicts these feelings in me. Hey I miss you.
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